Day 7

Finally...a night off....well spent doing homework.

Got home from work today, exhausted again. Went to bed and woke up at 2, so I missed breakfast AND lunch...again. Had a snack of a Zone bar and a boiled egg to get me through class. Made sure I packed plenty of water since I could feel the headache coming on. I got out of class and went to base to hang out for a little while and do homework. I'm so stressed about all the assignments I have coming up and are all due in the next 48 hours. You never realize how much your life gets put on hold when you work too many overnights in a row. I think my friend noticed how out of whack I was and gave me a couple pieces of his Hershey bar. As much of a cheat it was, it was still a good pick-me-up. So I stayed at base to work on a project before I came home for dinner.

Dinner was the other piece of salmon and a salad with a cut up tomato and balsamic. I also caved and had a glass of white wine. Let's just say that alcohol doesn't really like my body right now. After being really good and having only healthy food for so long, I have the biggest headache ever. So to replace some electrolytes and have a healthy dessert at the same time, I munched on a banana and now I'm in bed. I think I'm just going to do a little more homework and save the rest for tomorrow, because what self-respecting professor is going to grade what I have to say at this time of night?

I feel so out of sorts today. I know I'm physically drained, both from working too much, stressing over homework and from my sorry excuse for a caloric intake. To compensate for it, I've just been chugging water, which probably isn't helping me either, but it's being a good placebo. I really miss my routine. I have tonight off and then I'm working Wednesday through Sunday again. I don't know what I can change from my experiences of this past weekend to make sure I don't feel like this again but all I can think of is to just tough it out and drink plenty of green tea if I feel like I need caffeine. I really need to stop skipping lunch. It's bad enough that I work all night, get hungry, but would rather go to bed than sleep on a full stomach. I shouldn't be skipping lunch on top of it all, because essentially I'm currently getting one meal a day with like 2 or 3 snacks and then I'm just battling cravings for food in general.

Hoping that I can reset myself tomorrow and get through enough homework that I can go to work and just curl up on the couch until I have to get up for a call. I know that's a tall order with it being Week 6, but I can dream.